So I'm at the Breeze

So I'm @ the Breeze,

Bahama that is ,allowing my mind to race freely against my repressed thoughts!!! Really I was expecting to have this moment to write , it was just one of those days where for some short moments , I either left my favorite music headset @ home or left in my gymbag . And oh , the opportunity to Ponder Profoundly came... So here I am expressing my latest emotions..--simple past moments of wanting 2 scream ...... And others of shouting praises of satisfaction---this week has been filled with so many different emotions , but today is much less subtle than many of the others....---I mean How exactly is one REALLY supposed 2 respond to a " letter Of concern" from their employer during 'such' trying "economic" times stating that for once during their entire history shy 2 weeks of three years that all the negative factors of producing substandard work has finally come to fruition???? I mean , should one simply SMILE and call it a day ....or should ONE SCREAM to the top of their LUNGS simply expressing their dissatisfaction and disapproval of such works.... It's just how the "cookie" crumbles in CORPORATE AMERICA, I say....

----as aside ,why does it seem that my meal is taking its time to get here?....Alas and behold....45mins later my food arrives, leaving me only 5 mins to eat and 10 mins to drive back to work.."Priceles" the moments take while off site.....

FAST-FORWARD....and here goes the end of day ..


indeed I am complaining when really I should be content that I have EVEN "something" to be disapproving .....Ah well as usual ... My mood transformed to SOUR and eventually mellowed out as the day went on....so forth.....and still in my mind , I searched deep within for the motivation to complete my day and remembered that when it was time to go home, for ONCE I got lucky enough to close out my register @ 8:05 , which for most of you , who work RETAIL, moments like those are very rare and only happen once in a blue. The Norm time would set you from 20 mins to an hour past closing leaving even the most eager employee to disdain or frustration. ...NEVERTHELESS, I stood anxiously b/c I knew for the short moment I could erase my anxiety with "white"-turtle icecream or Tiramisu and sadly it had been at least a good 2months since my Last huge BINGE/Craving, without a doubt I gave into my craving and did !!!! I RELEASED my Retail Frustrations to my waistline and did the unthinkable leaving aside no thoughts of regret or rationalization...And to TOP the Icing on the CAKE, my even better Joys were achieved .

Some call me CRAZY or eccentric or just plain RANDOM, I pushed myself to run 6miles when My day ended, as to make up for my INSANE guilt craving. So @ like 845p , my check-in was @ my usual workout spot for a good interval jog and 20min capdown of the nicely heated sauna.... ....

FAST-FORWARD....again to the end ...me in my bed, with bliss on my way to ZZzzzzLand. good nite all...

relief of my day

So I'm sitting here in front of my desk top.... Bored to Death

My long lost love, ( BLOGGING) ....we meet again..

Just when a plain jog in the park won't do.. I'm back to free-lance writing . Whatever comes to mind first. No rhyme or rhythm, Just thoughts on paper.

- I know I need to focus...but WOW....what a weekend and it only gets more adventures as the new season as began , just trying to juggle life in general..Balancing is becoming more and more challenging. The sad but true thing, is that I am ONLY talking about myself in general. I haven't come to the time in my life where it's ( a husband, kids, career, and me).....

With that being said it's JUST ME and still I'm not balanced. I vow to take care of myself greatly so that I welcome myself into the Sexxxy 30's...With less than 2yrs left to hit that number. I must go Steady FORWARD.


When I feel mis-aligned, it usually means I'm unbalanced also =(.


-with all these quick events occurring so close in proximity, it's not really all that hard to really see why someone's world could almost turn upside down.

Anyhow, Tomorrow is another day to refocus and re-align......I will begin my focus on ME again...... Many more things to come.....I am truly excited for my personal life, as also I am working on all of my individual one on one relationships. Communication is definitely Key, so as a result never again will I continue to harbor feelings beyond that moment. Going forth, if So and when I feel frustrated with someone about whatever, I'll be sure to release it back in the air so that I can rest my head at night and hopefully resolve it with that person. So as I retire into the night......

.Best Health wishes as always.
LawinoJ