Just Being me ....June 2009

So I'm Sitting here and thinking about all of the things that have happened thus far in 2009. Today June 26, 2009 ,Who Would've figured this on a Beautiful Friday Night? As a result, I feel obliged to share my sentiments with you.

Indeed in the past few months, I managed to meander among thorns and bushes . Moreover, I have encountered many experiences from the highest of mountains to the lowest of valleys . And most of all, the biggest things that have caused these mature changes are sadly true like: the death of a loved one, the pure loss of friendship connections, life's painful lessons, and so forth. But now I will stop denying my self the moments in which this time is owed. My mindset at this present moment is to fulfill the dreams that have been already set for me. At the same time the mood at present is concurrent with the thoughts and actions of "LETTING NOTHING STOP ME" attitude.

Life, as we know it is quiet short ,my friends. Life is too short to sweat even the smallest of things. Friends I say to you, if you have any unresolved things amongst yourself, don't wait until the next day.. I beg you , don't be proud like I once was, waiting so long to tell my long-lost friend whom I deeply loved with ALL of my VERY SOUL..if ever a day went by with me not saying those simple words: "I love You"..and What would I do without you"?..and that you mean "yada yada ..blah , blah.." as it fits the situation....this moment too , it shall no longer pass. It will not pass without my thoughts exerted. I once thought that I could turn off my abilities to sympathize. VERY NOT true. To be HUMAN is to have the ability to feel or have emotions of which may also coincide with the notion of SADNESS from pain afflicted by situations. Taken for what this means, one can Speculate the moments of emotional instability, where the same individual can be Ecstatic about something and then of course, also Gravely depressed about another.

NOW as I transition to this Mature state...to whom shall I owe these burdens? I tell you from the deepest being of my heart, GO CONQUER each moment as if it is your last and LIVE it with no EXCUSES... OWN the time/hour and passing as it belongs to you. Blame only yourself for your shortcomings, but do not let it anchor you to the PAST. MOVE only FORWARD.

This new phase that I am transitioning as I say it is a WORK in PROGRESS and in no WAY will it happen overnight. GO,LIVE, LOVE,LOVE, CRY , EMBRACE and CHERISH all of the moments that are due, for you deserve that passing moment..

always and forever truest.

~Lawino-J Otto~